Spey Casting to a Rainbow

Standing waist deep in water, I forge past my numb toes into a sort of meditation I guess...where instead of repeating a mantra over and over to eliminate my thoughts of physical things, I am casting out and working through water in a trance. Suddenly I feel enlightened,



not by a tug tug or nip or screaming run, but by the realization that I am not ready to compromise....Compromise on what I ask myself? Pondering I can only come up with one answer, anything. And well that sounds selfish doesn't it? Yeah, it does sound selfish, but that is how I really feel and I am telling the truth...so at least I admit it, eh? All of a sudden, I feel understood.......by my own self. I understand myself here in this very moment, freezing in the water, and the clouds begin to drizzle rain.... I want to grasp onto this feeling and cling very tightly, to hold this knowing, this understanding tightly in my fist, but experience tells me to gently cradle it.
I am not ready to be anything but myself.


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Posted By k8 to Rogue Angels at 10/03/2008 07:00:00 AM